Posting?

This is just for experiment purposes.

You can call us Autobots for short.

Things seem to be settling back into the normal routine. I like that a lot. I feel much happier now. The only downside to life is that my sixth year exams are in a couple of weeks. I dropped a subject last week because the strains of three whole classes were just too much for me. Letting myself down a bit but hey. I really need to get studying. I have my higher History extended essay on Thursday, I do not want to do it.

I have the hospital tomorrow. Is it really stupid of me to be frightened? It is just that the last time I went in, just for a check, I ended up having to get surgery, again. I really don't want that to happen again.

I am really tired these days. I need to stop trying to do everything. School, work and then going out. I am young, should I not be able to handle this three little things all together?! I guess not. Suck it up.

Everyone is talking about the Political parties lately and to be honest, I know very little if not nothing about what the France is going on. I looked up the Liberal Democrats earlier because people seem to like them, they seem alright. I am legally allowed to vote from November so I better get knowledgeable on politics.

I went to see Cemetery Junction on Saturday. It was very good. And before you ask, it was GOOD not just Megan Good. I found it very funny, it was just what I needed. Something to tell me to just go do something. Get on a train and go. I would very much like to do that one day. Once I have money. And some brains. And an idea of where to go. Good start I think.

I bought a denim shirt last Friday and I am very proud of it. I loves it. I am so happy that I got it. I think I look rather fashionable in it. Is that just me? Thought so.

I don't really know what I am doing here. Random things keep popping into my head so I am writing them down.

I am watching Transformers. I am in love with the Transformers movies. I don't remember much from the original TV series or anything, I know I did watch them though because my dad did, but I love them. I know that Megatron is a baddy but he has an awesome name. I hope that when I can eventually afford a car, it will turn into an Autobot and protect me from all harm such as all this alien robots that are after me. Jeez, they just won't let me be.

I'd like to work in movies. Or on the TV. It just seems like so much fun.

I am too tired now. Nighty night.

Dilemma Number One Million.

I am trying to decide my future. There are so many wonderful possibilities out there but which one is for me? There is so much that I would like to, I want to try a bit of everything. But, for today I have narrowed it down to two choice. I have wonder about both these things many times over my lifetime, so I haven't just thought them up today.

Radio DJ or Police Woman?

I would like thoughts and feelings. A little feedback from my peers. Tomorrow my choices will be completely different, I am betting. I am far too indecisive. Choices that are going to effect the rest of my life are going to be tricky. In most situations I am more likely to choose the decision that is more likely to end my life.

Being a police woman would be really exciting. Well, depending on where I lived but I really want to be an investigator lady. Solving crime, most of the time. I think I am just addicted to crime programs. I watched the first episode of Castle today, maybe that is why. Nathan Fillion, a man to make any woman smile. Just me? I do love Firefly and Serenity, that is why. As soon as I watch House, I will want to become a diagnostician. Hmmm, not smart enough.

Then, I have being a radio dj. I love music, I always have and I most always will and again, I have been listening to the radio today so that may be why I have chosen this. It seems like so much fun though! I would have a few people breaking there there radios just to never hear me again however. I do hate my voice too. 'I really really really hate that to myself, my voice sounds fine but as soon as I hear a recording, I want to shoot myself in the head. It is awful. How do people put up with it?!

I would love to do something in music or television or movies, something like that. It has always interested me and I have always loved singing and acting. Pretty shite though. Gutted. HEY! As soon as Darroch gets in at the BBC, I could bribe him to get me a job! Sorted.

I have so much homework to do. I feel like just quiting school. I quit.

I'm the Milkybar Kid.

I am just up, nine o'clock starts when you have no plans but a massive pile of homework to be doing is not a nice thing. Not that I will be doing any of the homework until the day before I return to school. I only have four weeks of sixth year left. Four weeks of high school, EVER. I feel invincible!

I had a really nice day yesterday. I was late for my bar training at the Lewiston but I got there in time to get a certificate. I hung about for a while to talk to Hannah and Isla. I have missed everyone that I work with since I haven't been working there much. Later, I got to see Yvonne who recently just moved down to Glasgow and who I haven't seen in a while. She came up to do some visiting and I got my chunk of her. We went into town to see Kick-Ass. It was awesome! I really enjoyed it. Yes, as I do most things but still, this was a good movie. I saw some trailers for movies I am looking forward to. The Disappearance of Alice Creed looks like a good wee thriller but I only want to see it because the young guy was in Monarch of the Glen and while that was on years ago, my family and I were obsessed. I may have seen every episode. Hot Tub Time Machine looks so stupid and hilarious. Fascinating of all, Robin Hood. At first, seeing all the posters and that I thought that it might be quite rubbish but the trailer I saw yesterday made it look unbelievable. And I would be pulled along to see it just for Russel Crowe. Oh Liam.

I have so much work that I need to be doing but I cannot bring myself to do it, I really can't. I know I should of started it last week but I have enjoyed having these holidays because getting back into life has made me tired and sore. I just realised that one of my deadlines is tomorrow and I haven't even started the work. Am I screwed, or what?!