nightmare.

im beginning to hate myself and my body.
because it hates me.
waking up all the time at three thirty am is starting to do my head in.
i am soo so freaking tired and i really really wanted a nice sleep and i was having one before i was forced awake by this agonising sore stomach and back.
some, shoot me please!
im glad ill get a long lie on saturday though, but i do want to see the games for a bit, never miss it.
a shleep with my sweetheart is what i need.
i feel positively minging.
i cant even lie down cos it hurts too much.
its just getting worse.
i need help.