Can I wake you up?

When things feel utterly rubbish and depressing and I am sad etc, music is one of the things that automatically makes me forget about the bad bits and reminds me that things are good. The Twilight Saga : Eclipse Soundtrack, for example, is an example of a compilation of amazing songs that can make me feel amazing after one beat of the first song. At the moment, I have a few albums that do this for me.
The Twilight Saga : Twilight , New Moon and of course, Eclipse.
The True Blood Soundtrack.
Band of Skulls - Baby Darling Dollface Honey. (Some unbelievably brilliant songs on this album, it is a must listen.)

I love music. I always have and I always will.

I played my guitar for the first time in months today. My fingers are very painful but it is worth it. I might go play piano later to. Who knows? I miss playing music and I wish I kept up with it because I suck at it.

I wish I was back at Rockness, seeing some of my favourite artists. That is something else that makes me uncontrollably happy ; seeing live music. There is just something magical about it. It makes me want to make music. I won't be seeing anyone for a while, I don't think. The only thing I have planned is Paramore in November. Exciting.

I just re-read all of the True Blood books. They are just like music for me. Somewhere to escape when this world seems so disastrous. This may sound strange since the life Sookie leads is pretty disastrous and must make me feel worse but it doesn't. I wish I lived in her world. With the vampires, the Weres, the shapeshifters, the witches and wiccans, the fairys and the telepaths. What a world it is! I get completely engrossed into the books. When I am reading them they are all I can think of and when I finished all ten I felt at a complete loss. I felt lonely. So, I began re-reading Breaking Dawn from the Twilight Saga. True Blood is definatly my favourite out of the two now but I will always love the Twilight books and I had forgotten just how exciting Breaking Dawn is! I cannot wait for Eclipse, the movie. I am hoping that the cinema in Lanzarote will be showing it. I do not care if it is in Spanish! I will know what they are saying.

I need this holiday that is only seven sleeps away. I think we all do. It is going to be so nice. A whole two weeks of family ; mum, dad, brother, aunty, uncle, cousin and Liam. Two weeks straight with Liam. Just what I need. Plus, the food is always amazing, the sun will be bright, the drink will be . . . expensive but worth it, the beaches beautiful and the craic will be flowing.

Yes.

Posting?

This is just for experiment purposes.

You can call us Autobots for short.

Things seem to be settling back into the normal routine. I like that a lot. I feel much happier now. The only downside to life is that my sixth year exams are in a couple of weeks. I dropped a subject last week because the strains of three whole classes were just too much for me. Letting myself down a bit but hey. I really need to get studying. I have my higher History extended essay on Thursday, I do not want to do it.

I have the hospital tomorrow. Is it really stupid of me to be frightened? It is just that the last time I went in, just for a check, I ended up having to get surgery, again. I really don't want that to happen again.

I am really tired these days. I need to stop trying to do everything. School, work and then going out. I am young, should I not be able to handle this three little things all together?! I guess not. Suck it up.

Everyone is talking about the Political parties lately and to be honest, I know very little if not nothing about what the France is going on. I looked up the Liberal Democrats earlier because people seem to like them, they seem alright. I am legally allowed to vote from November so I better get knowledgeable on politics.

I went to see Cemetery Junction on Saturday. It was very good. And before you ask, it was GOOD not just Megan Good. I found it very funny, it was just what I needed. Something to tell me to just go do something. Get on a train and go. I would very much like to do that one day. Once I have money. And some brains. And an idea of where to go. Good start I think.

I bought a denim shirt last Friday and I am very proud of it. I loves it. I am so happy that I got it. I think I look rather fashionable in it. Is that just me? Thought so.

I don't really know what I am doing here. Random things keep popping into my head so I am writing them down.

I am watching Transformers. I am in love with the Transformers movies. I don't remember much from the original TV series or anything, I know I did watch them though because my dad did, but I love them. I know that Megatron is a baddy but he has an awesome name. I hope that when I can eventually afford a car, it will turn into an Autobot and protect me from all harm such as all this alien robots that are after me. Jeez, they just won't let me be.

I'd like to work in movies. Or on the TV. It just seems like so much fun.

I am too tired now. Nighty night.

Dilemma Number One Million.

I am trying to decide my future. There are so many wonderful possibilities out there but which one is for me? There is so much that I would like to, I want to try a bit of everything. But, for today I have narrowed it down to two choice. I have wonder about both these things many times over my lifetime, so I haven't just thought them up today.

Radio DJ or Police Woman?

I would like thoughts and feelings. A little feedback from my peers. Tomorrow my choices will be completely different, I am betting. I am far too indecisive. Choices that are going to effect the rest of my life are going to be tricky. In most situations I am more likely to choose the decision that is more likely to end my life.

Being a police woman would be really exciting. Well, depending on where I lived but I really want to be an investigator lady. Solving crime, most of the time. I think I am just addicted to crime programs. I watched the first episode of Castle today, maybe that is why. Nathan Fillion, a man to make any woman smile. Just me? I do love Firefly and Serenity, that is why. As soon as I watch House, I will want to become a diagnostician. Hmmm, not smart enough.

Then, I have being a radio dj. I love music, I always have and I most always will and again, I have been listening to the radio today so that may be why I have chosen this. It seems like so much fun though! I would have a few people breaking there there radios just to never hear me again however. I do hate my voice too. 'I really really really hate that to myself, my voice sounds fine but as soon as I hear a recording, I want to shoot myself in the head. It is awful. How do people put up with it?!

I would love to do something in music or television or movies, something like that. It has always interested me and I have always loved singing and acting. Pretty shite though. Gutted. HEY! As soon as Darroch gets in at the BBC, I could bribe him to get me a job! Sorted.

I have so much homework to do. I feel like just quiting school. I quit.

I'm the Milkybar Kid.

I am just up, nine o'clock starts when you have no plans but a massive pile of homework to be doing is not a nice thing. Not that I will be doing any of the homework until the day before I return to school. I only have four weeks of sixth year left. Four weeks of high school, EVER. I feel invincible!

I had a really nice day yesterday. I was late for my bar training at the Lewiston but I got there in time to get a certificate. I hung about for a while to talk to Hannah and Isla. I have missed everyone that I work with since I haven't been working there much. Later, I got to see Yvonne who recently just moved down to Glasgow and who I haven't seen in a while. She came up to do some visiting and I got my chunk of her. We went into town to see Kick-Ass. It was awesome! I really enjoyed it. Yes, as I do most things but still, this was a good movie. I saw some trailers for movies I am looking forward to. The Disappearance of Alice Creed looks like a good wee thriller but I only want to see it because the young guy was in Monarch of the Glen and while that was on years ago, my family and I were obsessed. I may have seen every episode. Hot Tub Time Machine looks so stupid and hilarious. Fascinating of all, Robin Hood. At first, seeing all the posters and that I thought that it might be quite rubbish but the trailer I saw yesterday made it look unbelievable. And I would be pulled along to see it just for Russel Crowe. Oh Liam.

I have so much work that I need to be doing but I cannot bring myself to do it, I really can't. I know I should of started it last week but I have enjoyed having these holidays because getting back into life has made me tired and sore. I just realised that one of my deadlines is tomorrow and I haven't even started the work. Am I screwed, or what?!

Gleek.

Today, has been a good day. Mostly.

I got up early so I could get ready to go to Easter Study at school. As I was leaving my house I spotted a parcel on my back step. It had been teared open slightly. It also had blood on it. I began to panic, thinking what the france!? I ran upstairs and asked my brother if he was bleeding. He was not receptive. Then, I woke my dad up and he went out to see it where we found that it had gone. The parcel had gone. I think I went mad.

However, I drove to school. I stalled twice but hey ho, I am pleased with my progress because of all my practice yesterday. I did about one page of work in the whole five hours that I was at psychology study. I was instead coerced into watching Trololo, Best Bloopers of some fishing program ( Ohh Nelly!) and other various best bits from movies.

I then invited myself into town with Duncan and Calum Macleod. After dragging them through some shops in the Eastgate, we got a bus to the retail park where we bought tickets to see Green Zone, went to Burger King - I hadn't had one since Saturday! When I also had a Macdonalds - Tescos, met up with Stephen, movie time!

I really enjoyed the movie, as I do most movies. I thought there might of been more to it, like there was something else to happen but I liked it. I like Matt Damon.

After getting Stephen passport photos at the train station, in which he looked pretty solid, we caught the quarter past eight bus home to Drum with Cameron. It was a larff.

My scars have been hurting today and they haven't for quite a while now. It was kind of worrying me but I realised that this must be something to with them healing inside. It hurt to laugh. I laugh a lot.

My movie of the day is going to be Enchanted because I loves it. I have recently started to watch it again. When I get into a movie I watch it every night for a week or two until I find something else and then I repeat back. I remember forcing Liam to watch it one night and then kindly falling asleep. I really do love this film.

Well, it is back to school tomorrow until one. Then, I have my first shift back at work! I really hope it isn't too busy. I am excited though, to see everyone again and to get the moulah rolling in again.

Thank you for a lovely day! Sleep tight.

OH YEAH! PS. I am entering a contest from E4 to win a walk on part in GLEE! Hells yes.

Go On, Go On, Go On.

You know that I love my home and where I live, I truly do but I want to get away for a while.

I have always wanted to travel the world and now I am getting older I can see that dream in a not so distant future, hopefully. I just wish it was now.

I would love to go to Japan. If I did, I think it would have to be with my dad because he was the one that introduced me to some of the wonders that come from Japan. For example, Manga and Anime. And also because he wants to go too.
Then, I would love to re-visit Rome and I would go with my mum because I think she loves this place more than she loves me. I love it more than I love me so it is all good. I miss Rome, a lot. It was an unbelievable place and I would love to experience its wonders again and I know if I go with my mum it will be a little bit more chilled than the last time!
As for the rest of the world, I want to see it with Liam and my friends. Having the same memories as the people you are going to spend the rest of your life with is a wonderful thought.

If I had the money I think that I would be on a plane right now to somewhere warm, just for a little lie on a quaint little beach for a couple of hours. Peace and solitude for a little while sounds blissful, does it not?
Hiding in my room will have the same effect I am sure.

The next time I plan to go away is on the 4th of July with my family and Liam. Lanzarote, again. I have already been twice! Geez. I can't wait though. I do love it there. Not sure how I will like it when it is heaving though. I just want to go to the big aquarium that is there. One thing I will not be doing is going back to Timanfaya National Park. It was good, but I seriously thought that I would get to look into a big volcano and see all the lave etc. I was let down! Oh well.

Anyone want to walk me up to the pharmacy? Or just go for me? Cheers.
I don't really like doing things by myself, going places anyway. I will need to get used to independence. I am almost an adult. Only eight months or so. Crazy stuff.

P.S. I am eternally grateful.

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has helped me through the last couple of months. Without you all, my friends and family, I think I probably would of fallen to pieces.

You are amazing people and I love you with all of my heart.
Even you Angus :)

If I Fall, If I Die

I have the most mental of all the mental dreams. Seriously. I had a dream the other night that I was swimming in the sea but i was looking up at my face and I was Declan from Neighbours. Then, I was being chased by this deranged sting ray beast. I swam and swam and swam until I reached shallow waters where there was jaggy coral and it re-opened one of my scars. I think that is what I am fearful of in real life. I knew that I was a teeny bit worried but nothing to the extreme of my dream. The cut was all flappy.
Eugh.
I am scared to get back into things, just in case I make things worse. In case I put myself back into hospital. I know that that is pretty much impossible, of course, well, for the reasons I was in before anyway. But I am a hypochondriac. I cannot help it.

On a lighter note, I had a dream that I was preggers but I couldn't remember how it happened. Now, that one was because I was watching 16 and Pregnant. However, they knew exactly how they got pregnant.

I cannot remember the ones that I had last night. Even after I said to myself 'Remember your dreams!'. Rubbish.

Long Time No See.

My last post was in September last year, oh emm geesus. So, I thought I would write something new, since I am really rather bored. Well, I am watching True Blood Series One and i am currently reading Book Two : Living Dead In Dallas, again. I truly am an addict.
I think that I would actually give anything to be in True Blood. Anything. I adore it.

I hate feeling like this, being sore. Having operations ruins quite a lot for a while. I am probably going to fail school again! And can you believe that I have actually started to want to exercise, me, exercise, it is crazy but I can't because of my belly. Gutted.

I want to go away. Somewhere warm. Drum is starting to depress me. Blah.

Back to good ole Sookie Stackhouse :)

co-codamol.

Life, oh life, is pretty mental.
Friday, Calum and Rory's birthday party. It must be said that it was awesome, i thoroughly enjoyed it. Arrogance is the most stupid drinking game that has ever, ever, ever been invented but Beer Pong on the other hand, is beast. Aiden, Joph and myself were defeated but our faces were kept brave by the amount of drink forced upon on us for losing. I dj'ayed, that is my spelling! Pressing some buttons, making some tuuuuuunes. Banging Beats to say the least! Hahaha, i must of just been so annoying to Calum and Rory. MINI-MIX! I think I am going to give up on blogger, I never have the time. False, I can never be bummed to actually write something on here.

High School Musical is going pretty well so far. Who all is going to come see it? No one? Fair enough. Please? Okay.
I am really excited about putting on a performance again and actually being a character. Even though it is HSM. I haven't been a proper character since i was in . . . S1 and we did Scrooge. I was the Ghost of Christmas Past. It made my year.
Learning lines is a bitch though. I have the same line three times, worded slightly different and I just ... can't ... get it!

My movie of the day :)
What shall it be? What was the last thing i saw in the cinema actually? The beginning of District 9. I have seen it before and oh em gee, it is pretty darn good! 'Look at 'im there, he's eatin' the rubba'' Brilliant! But, the last thing I saw properly in the cinema was Dorian Grey, I think. Good, but dissapointing. After having the whole book describe to you in great detail by someone who adores the book, no movie would be fulfilling.
My movie of the day though, might have to be this movie i saw part of yesterday, Home of the Brave. It is about a few American soldiers who have just returned from Iraq, traumatised and we see what their lives are like when they get home. It has Fiddy Cent in it :D and the beautiful Jessica Beil, lucky JT. I would most definatly recommend this movie.

What now? Eh? I have no clue.
. . . . . inspiration for a topic would be much appreciated.
No? Okay, goodbye.

up, up and away so whatever.

Today has been rather lovely, to be honest. I woke up, easily this morning at about half seven, after my long amazing sleep last night! Tough weekend, early starts every morning so, yesterday, after work, I went for a nap at five until eight, I woke up, saw Liam and went back to sleep at half ten, straight through till the morning. When I got to school, my Youth Awards class and myself got the school mini bus ready to go wall climbing at Inverness Leisure Ccntre. It was awesome! I had a brilliant time and most definatly recommend it if you have never tried it. I got to the top of a semi easy part, twice! I was very, very pleased with myself. Then, we got back to school at lunch time when I got to go see Liam, made my lunch time. Nothing much in period five apart from some laughs at Rory's expense, ahem, sorry that's Jay from The Inbetweeners. Period six, English with the delightful Mr Smith. Hail Macbeth, Thane of Cawdor! I am enjoying it immensly, though I do still envy anyone doing Higher English at Inverness College as they get to do Romeo and Juliett. One of my favourite stories, ever.

I am so proud of myself, I cleaned! My room has been re-shuffled, dusted, hoovered, de-rubbished and fresh bed sheets have been put on. It has been a while, since I am a lazy, lazy, lazy girl. It is feeling very cosy now though and I am happy.

I also got my laptop to go through my TV again, thought that I had lost my cables but, as usual, i just misplaced them. Now, though, I get sound thanks to Liam. My laptop speaker is being rubbish so its nice to be able to listen to my music on hype again.

I have finished my history essay. 'How democratic was Britain between 1850 and 1918?' Quite but not fully, basically.

'You can look all over but you, you'll never find hot shit like mine because i provide dat new new.'

I actually do, fancy Kid Cudi's voice and music.

Oh yes, one last tiny thing before I finish this little blog here.
I AM GOING TO SEE PARAMORE LIVE AT THE SECC!

i never thought that i could be like that, i am sorry.

i am and you know that i am.
you must know that wasnt me, i dont know what is going on with me atm but i hate it.

i am sorry and i love you.
forever and always.

March 5th, 2010

The day I am waiting for, that could'nt come soon enough!
Tim Burton's Alice In Wonderland.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LjMkNrX60mA

I know that I will LOVE it.

maybe i am just a Girl, Interrupted.

My movie of the day, I think. I am watching it right now and I have only seen it once before but I adore it, it is a wonderful movie. Crazy, to say the least but inspiring also. Winona Ryder and Angelina Jolie, two unbelievable actresses to begin with but this movie just brings them to a whole new level of amazing. The lead singer from 30 Seconds to Mars is in it too, can't remember his name though. He is quite pretty, not mad keen on the moustache.

Go watch it, go, go, go.

I wish I knew what I wanted to do with my life. What career I want to pursue, what courses I need to do to get there, where I want to go, where I want to live. The only thing that I am certain on, is who with. Nothing could change my mind on that decision.

Sleepy Times. G'Night. x

can you hear me?

I hate my boyfriend and everyone else who has coughed, or sneezed near me.
I have the sorest throat right now and guess what? Guess frickin' what!
I have to sing for an audition I'm doing tonight after school. :'(
I don't even know what song that I want to sing, I can sing.
I am not happy right now, I want to go to my bed and sleep forever and ever.
Then, after this terribly nerve wracking audition, I have work from half five till freakin' finish.
I am not up for life right now, not in the slightest.
I hope, after work, I get to see my lovely love, love love love.

I enjoyed Tuesday, immensely.
Town, I got euros for my holiday and went to The Mustard Seed for dinner.
It was delicious, most of all the strawberry and white chocolate cheesecake.
Arrrryum.
Liam bought me Series One of Flight of the Conchords, I should of been buying him presents!
It was very very sweet.
Watched it as soon as we got home, I adore it.
Now I have the set :)
Then, park meetings are always awesome.
I love Rob and Drew.
Darroch too.
Joe and Stuart, maybe Paul.
Liam, ehh yeah, he is alright.
Reading my more! man facts to them, hilaaaaarious.
Exchanging stories of all the funny times, not all were meant to be funny but still, they were funny.

Angus, being the cock he is, made me re-do all this and put in capital letters.
I hate capital letters! They aren't nice looking. I like everything to be in lower case, it makes me a lot happier, to be honest.
Anyone elso agree with me? No? Okay, I am weird.

I am re-reading The Wasp Factory by Iain Banks again, before I need to start to take some notes on it. There are a few bits that i completelly don't remember reading the first time. I must say, I am falling in love with this book, all over again.
Okay, love is maybe too strong and the completelly wrong kind of word for the contents of this book but you know what I mean.
I enjoy it lots.

I hate Angus.

nightmare.

im beginning to hate myself and my body.
because it hates me.
waking up all the time at three thirty am is starting to do my head in.
i am soo so freaking tired and i really really wanted a nice sleep and i was having one before i was forced awake by this agonising sore stomach and back.
some, shoot me please!
im glad ill get a long lie on saturday though, but i do want to see the games for a bit, never miss it.
a shleep with my sweetheart is what i need.
i feel positively minging.
i cant even lie down cos it hurts too much.
its just getting worse.
i need help.

my two new found loves.

number one.
are you my family? can i stay with you a while? can i stop of in your bed tonight? i could make you smile. in the morning i'll make you breakfast. in the evening i'll warm the bed and i'll always be happy to kiss you. promise i'll never get sad. i'll love you the best way i know how.

number two.
yeah, i don't care about time. i want you body and mind. yeah, we've got tonight and nothing left to lose. i don't have any answers, i'm willing to take chances. i don't live in the past. yeah, i care about you.

:)

one hundred and fifty.

i love quizzes, still do 'em on myspace :)
so, first day back at the old GUHS. how wonderful. severelly, NOT! it was a fun day, dont get me wrong, seeing all my buddies after the holidays, i missed them so much but it was painful :'(
i have to re-take higher history. i got 17/30 for my extended essay, 13/40 for paper one (because i only managed one essay because the questions were shiteeee) and 10/30 for paper two. ten? TEN?! that was the best god damn paper two i had ever had to sit! fuck this shit :'( :'(
i am just happy that i passed my english so i can do higher this year now.
psychology too, will be awesome.
not to say history wont be, i just madly wanted to advanced higher.

anyways, hows life?
im starting Friends from the beginning. only only episode four of series one but im getting there.
i hope that as i make my way through, i can slowly buy the ones i dont have.
:)

i am so tiiiiired, shhhhleeeeeepy shleep shleep.
and cooooold!
shnuggles? pweeese? :)

better than personal study work.

How many texts are in your inbox?
twenty-two.

When did your last hug take place?
around half three pm today, i would say.

Who was the last person you talked to?
my mum and brother in person.
Li Li in text.

Whats the first text in your inbox say?
i love you with all my heart x x x x x x x

When was the last time you smiled?
a bit ago.

Does anyone like you as more than a friend?
yes :)

Who was the first person you talked to today?
Liam, when i woke up and said morning.

Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
Liam and my friends.

What are you NOT looking forward to?
going back to school.

Are you a forgiving person?
yes.

What is something you really want right now?
a hug and a kiss.

How many TRUE friends do you have?
i have a few.

How late did you stay up last night and why?
i cant remember but i was out for a while so quite.

If you could move somewhere else, would you?
maybe.

Do you prefer to call or text?
i dont mind either.

Who took your profile picture?
Rory i think.

What is your ring tone?
Underoath - A Boy Brushed Red Living in Black and White.

When is the next time you will hug someone?
tomorrow most likely.

Are you wearing anything on your feet right now?
nat.

What are you eating?
nothing, just had a chinese for dinner though.
was delicious.

Who was the last person you texted?
Liam.

First person under J on your cell phone?
Jason.

Do you hate that person?
no.

Do you have any fun plans for tomorrow?
school . . . . yippee.

What's your longest relationship?
nine months.

Do you know anyone whose name starts with a Z?
nopes.

Who was the last person to smoke a cigarette in your presence?
Liam.

Is there anyone that you care more about than yourself?
most definatly.

How old is the first person on your top?
seventeen.

What does your last sent text say?
i love you.

Are you crazy?
sometimes.

What was the last thing you drank?
coca cola.

Are you happy right now?
extremelly.

What did you do today?
i stayed in bed watching Friends with Liam until half three then he went home and i went back to bed, ive played guitar, sorted my bag for tomorrow [i need a new one], listened to music, watched more Friends and Neighbours and Home and Away, started re reading The Wasp Factory [really should of done notes on that by now :/], cleaned my room, etc.

Do you like to smile?
i do yes.

Do you still turn to your parents for advice or comfort?
sometimes.

Have you ever been in a difficult relationship?
uh huh.

How old will you be on your next birthday?
seventeen.

Where is one place that you'd like to visit?
there are many.
the whole world please.

Who's the last person of the opposite sex you hugged?
Liam.

What sport do you watch the most?
ehh, none.

Would you ever consider piercing your lip?
no, not anymore.

Do you know anyone with the same name as you?
yes.

What was the worst mistake of your life?
im sure ive made a few.

Did you know anybody that has committed suicide?
no, i didnt, i dont think.

Who do you go to for advice the most?
im not sure, probably my friends or Liam.

What's the worst thing to happen to you today?
i burnt my eggy bread.

Is there a certain person that makes you feel safe?
sure is :)

How many people do you 100% trust?
a few.

Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
definatly not.

What do you think of guys who have girlfriends but let other girls wear their hoodies?
i dont have a problem with it, if they are friends, its what you do.

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
if they want to, but they cant expect anything from it, ive got my baby :)

Do you hate the last girl you were texting?
my Yve, noooo :D

What are you listening to?
Foo Fighters-Next Year atm.

Did you ever lose a best friend?
yes.

Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
yah.

Last phonecall was from?
my mum.

Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?
yes.

Have you ever made out in a public bathroom?
nope.

If you could go back in time and change one thing, what would it be?
i dunno.

Did you ever sleep in the same bed with a member of the opposite sex?
i have yes.

Talking to anyone online right now?
nope.

Five hours ago, were you touching a person of the opposite sex?
yes, shnuggles.

Is there a difference between love and in love?
yes, of course there is.
everyone knows that difference as well.
you can feel that difference.

Do you have a brother?
a younger one yes.

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with an C?
yes.

When you take a drink of something, do you hold your pinky up?
yeah, i think i do sometimes.

Do you get along with girls?
yes.
probably boys better though.
i spend most of my time these days with guys.

Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
probs.

Do you laugh a lot?
i do.

Have you ever kissed someone that was high?
yes.

Was your last text from a boy or a girl?
boy, my boy.

Who was the last person to touch your butt?
Liam.

Do you think it's bad to have sex at your age?
nope.

Have you ever wished to live a day of life in the opposite sex?
i thought that i might be interesting, yeah.

Would it bother you if your best friend got naked at a beach or river?
no, not really, its up to them eh.

What is your favorite thing about the beach?
the freedom.

What is the first URL you usually type in when logging on to the Web?
myspace.
i have a routine.

Last place you went out to eat?
em, emmmmmmmmm, macdonalds?
no, morrisons, haha.

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a J?
yes.

If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?
yes, i would care.

Have you ever hugged someone for over a minute?
yes,

Would you ever get a tattoo on your collar bone?
no, i dunno.
could be pretty.

Do you check your texts right away when you receive them?
when im not preoccupied.

Drum Banter.

so i was out last night with a bunch of lovely people, decided to play football. it didnt go too well, playing football while eating a lolly pop equals grassy mouths.
we decided we would go drinking instead.
a few people werent up for it so they went away and the group was Liam, Carl, Ja'mie, Angus, Paul and Pe-Pe. oh, and myself.
we played I Never which was mental. they didnt like that a girl was there. you can pretty much say anything in front of me, i dont really care. then we bet on who would win rock paper scissors and whoever lost the bet, drank. we then decided that it would be quite fun to climb on the roof of the pavilion. it was pretty scary but i was drunk, i handled it.
after a wander down to the shop, we bumped into four German tourists looking for booze so we gave them a sip of Pauls whisky, which was minging. Carl made me drink it by saying if i didnt then he wouldnt come to see Paramore with me :'( so i had to.
the best part is yet to come. when Paul and Jamie began to play fight, that turned as real as you can get. Carl steps in to split it up and gets punched in the face by Paul who straight away goes 'Carl, im soo sorry!' when Carl goes 'Right, thats fucking it.' and starts up the fight. so all the boys get involved in breaking up this fight. punches are flying and so is Pe-Pe clinging on to Jamies back.
the funniest thing i have ever seen in my whole almost seventeen years of being alive.
i just decide to stay back with the Germans and watch them stop fighting.
they ask me 'Is this usual for Drumnadrochit?' and after pondering this for a second i say 'Yes.'
when the fight finally stops, the boys walk over, laughing and patting each others backs as if nothing happened. mentalists.
it was a good night, we drank a lot and i am chuffed, i dont have a hangover! :D
never happened to me before, i always get hangovers. maybe it was the scrambled eggs i ate before i went to bed.
maybe cause Li Li kept me safe :)

school tomorrow?
no thank you. i really really dont want to go. i dont even know what im going to be doing. i hate this. nooooooooooo.

Chandler Bing.

my favourite Friends character, i think. i am up at twenty minutes past five in the morning watching series five of Friends. fuck off stomach pain :'( i only have four more series to collect to finish off my collection. i have one, three, four, five, eight and ten. they are still ridiculously hilarious to me. there are a lot of people who are like 'ah, total gone off it now it has been overplayed.' i say no, it will never be overplayed for me. keep going with the playing. im watching the ones with Ross and Emily. he is getting worried that Emily might be gay with Susan, like what happened with Carol. Pheobe just found out that she is having triplets and has been giving the choice to name baby number three. Joey and Chandler are fighting for their names to be chosen. Chanoey? nahhh. GO WITH CHANDLER! i love him. i do love Joey too though . . and Ross. really, i love all six of them! in all different ways. Joey is cute, Pheobe is just wonderful! i want to be bessies with Rachel for free fashion and Monica for the food but Chandler, i am in love with Chandler. deeply, in love. i think it is his humour that i am drawn to, maybe that he is so pained and unsuccesful that i want to just run up and shnuggle him.

okay, a tad ridiculous now. i woke up at half three with this pain and it is now five thirty five am and it is still hanging on strong. i took paracetamol at some point and it didnt help one teeny tiny bit. so i put on disk one of series two Flight of the Conchords and it didnt take my mind off anything. all it did now was get that 'going to a party, sippin' on bacardi' too many dicks song. they do have some ridiculously funny songs. which brings me to two other men i am well and trully in love with.

Bret McKenzie and Jemaine Clement, they are so naive and little. they make me smile lots and lots. i just adore their songs, 'mazing. i like Murray too, he is just gorgeous! even if i knew the characters i would still fall in love with them, it is the accent. i dont know why they dont get all the girls in the programme, they should. Mel doesnt count.

Ross just got an earring! looks . . . .good? im not mad keen on earrings on men, plugs, yes. well, i guess it would depend on the guy, eh. that reminds me, i need earrings. i have two pairs that have their backs and arent broken. all my necklaces are fucked too! they all get tangled in my jewellery box.

i want to go to America, ive heard that it is an amazing place and i want to go to the big comic shops.

pain pain, go away, come again another day.

or never.

that sounds better.

audience and audio.

i hear that i missed a hell of a performance by Twin Atlantic at Belladrum, gutted.
cannot beat last years though when everyone was made to sit down, ahaha, LOL.
i just bought my ticket for their gig at the Ironworks on the 11th of September, it is going to be good. its nice that it is on a friday, after party? ahhh, ya!
i was going through all my photos that i have saved and i saved loads of Berlin ones from beebz.
i miss the old days. we were mental.
i miss Berlin a lot. it was an unbelievable holiday. i have soooo many memories from it. good times :)
bored.

geeeeee aye.

Movie of the Day :
the best action movie that i have ever seen. no jokes. saw it at the movies just this morning and loved it! not only does it have the gorge Channing Tatum in it, it also has the stunning Sienna Miller kicking serious ass! mmmm, i know what i wanna do when i grow up, be a Joe :P

five months today baby (: almost half a year! long time eh. i am cooking dinner this evening, hmmm, hope i dont end the relationship on the account that i kill us. i made cheesecake yesterday, are you meant to put sugar in the filling? och well, tastes fine all the same. i took one to poor wee sick Drew to say get well soon, so scared im going to make him worse :/

i might get a job as a secretary or something. i quite enjoy typing, i used to be faster than i am now though. thats why i like blogging, i get to type :)

Scorpion King is on anytime and i am being forced to watch it. i will wait till my dad falls asleep and switch to Brideshead Revisited because i have wanted to see it for quite a while.

what should i wear tonight? the clothes i wore to the dance maybe? i dont really have any other nice clothes. i really need to get some. i am already being mocked for my disastorous cheesecake making skills by people who havent even tried it yet.

its good!

not really, i used jam for the top. you only get the highest class from me.
five star :D

my house is freezing. our boiler broke which also means i have to use a crappy electric shower that is just, rubbish.

i hope the rest of my cooking goes a little better (yn)

£6

if only i got a pound sterling for ever pound of weight i put on.
id have £6. half a stone in four weeks, not pleased. the treadmill is being purchased.
i, so far, have worked 24.25 hours this week. nine hours in one day, yesterday, a lot for me! im chuffed though, i gotta save for going to Glasgow, for going to Lanzarote, for when i start learning to drive, for Christmas, for birthdays etc etc.
is it wrong that i didnt find Radioheads new song terrible? dont hate me Liam.
my brother just told me he hates Florence and the Machine's - Rabbit Heart.
i think i might kill him.
the P.E.S.T remix is soo much better, eh Rory (:
i really need yto start making notes on The Wasp Factory for when i go back to school, since i can do English :) quite pleased.
exams are pish and should all go away, for ever. no no no.
im off to tescos, food shopping.
num.

bag of nerves.

FIFTH YEAR EXAM RESULTS : ONE SLEEP!
fml. i am not happy with my efforts this year, tbqh. i could of done so much more. next year though, ill try better. although, i did say that last year :/ i am excited about going out tomorrow night though, with my friends from work (: Pizza Express.
s'all.

the dream.

i had a dream last night that i was going to write a blog about my new tattoo, which i do not have. gutted. i wouldnt mind too much that i cant legally drink or get a tattoo or whatever, if i was seventeen and allowed to start driving but no. im stuck at sixteen, what a shit age.
im rather obsessed with Beyonce - Sweet Dreams. dunno why, i just like it, catchy.
my brother just told me that i am turning into a ned because of the way i talk.
what a ned!

Movie of the Day.

phenomenal. i adored it. with my whole heart, i loved it. you would need to watch it. maybe it was the company i was in that made it a memorable movie for me.
yesterday and last night was one of the best days of my life. :) :-*

tattoo your name across my heart.

Movie of the Day : Superbad.
i totally adore this movie! i bought it from hmv yesterday for £3! how insanely awesome, eh!? yes, i thought as much. i also bought edward scissorhands and the warriors for £3 each. i love hmv, i wonder how many points i have on my card now? hmmm.
i dyed my hair. . . . . IT'S PITCH, PITCH BLACK! it was meant to be a dark brown. my hair is fucked up, i think. it should calm down a bit after i wash it a few times, only got it done today.
so, HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF-BLOOD PRINCE. Tomorrow. 10:30am. Family and Liam. HELLS YES. i cannot wait, im so excited that i could pee myself. i wouldnt care either, im that excited. ahhhhhhhhhhhh. i read up to chapter 13 but have no time to read the rest so i have given up.
i am sleepy. i got quite a bit of sleep last night though, so i shouldnt be. oh wells, early sleeps for early risers. snooooooze.
dont really have much to say in this one, thats it really.
night (: x

are you an elephant? you've crushed me to pieces.

elephants trunk more like ;) he knows, he knows. you know what i do actually adore though and havent had in many a year, wee willie winkys. am i right? im right, they are awesome.
harry potter and the philosophers stone, takes me back to the days of oxgangs primary school, edinburgh, danni, lewis and myself, being the characters. i was hermione, yussss. the good ole days. i miss them, a lot. i miss them a lot.
i want to jump into the massive pile of money harry has in his vault in gringotts. dont you love the way hagrid speaks? i do. ahhhh, harry potter. jk rowling developed a world that i can lose myself in, its amaaaazing. that and lord of the rings movies. i pretend im there, running around with the orks, slaying some people, i only slay the bad guys cos i like to pretend im a hobbit, with my hairy feet. if i be arwen will you by my aragorn? yes? oh how wonderful, im queen of gondor. im taking the hobbits in as my servants. dance boy dance, sing me a song while i slaver all this food down me because i eat like a savage dog. i hate that scene, makes me puke a little. not pleasant it has to be said.
i think it is lovely that sean astin made that short film that one of the gaffers from lotr came up with before he died. The Long and Short of It, watch it (:
im hungry, i think im just bored. i dont have food to eat though, rather, im lazy and dont want to go look!
i love it when people make me bracelets, makes me feel special. thank you siany :D
i wear them all on my right hand and never take them off. they mean a lot to me.

right, sleepy time soon, goodnight t'internet, sweet dreams my lovely friends, nice sleeps. x

bebo.com/megaaaatron

im the most indecisive person you will ever meet. i like dancing, waltzing to be precisei blog and it makes me happy to write down my thoughts. i want a larger dvd collection. i like food. burger king:chicken royale with cheese large meal. macdonalds:mcchicken nugget large meal. period drama movies are my favourite. i wish people wear a little calmer about twilight, they are ruining it for the people that dont know its true wonders. i like to read but i never find the time, though i have plenty of it. i wish my room was sophisticated, as well as my clothing. i enjoy rambling. oh, galaxy caramel. glamour and more magazines. nokie 5800s. in bed is my favourite place to be. along side being in a cosy cinema. i hate rumours and i hate this little village. i like hugs and i like kisses. i love to laugh and make people laugh. i want to travel the world and re travel the places i have been. i want a life, with that one, thats all i ask.

third.

shite mood all day and i dont know why. wish it could be cured, obviously that is too much to ask. i worked two hours today, my hours are getting shorter and shorter. i had to trudge to the shop in the rain for crisps and sweets for my family. found the treasure that is this months glamour, missed last monthes. im feeling restricted, so fucking restricted. i hate it. i want space and my privacy back. three weeks. trying to read harry potter, too many distractions. cannot wait for the movie. i love you and miss you so much right now baby, i am sorry.

straight edge 4 lyf.

i get too angry when im drunk.
the slightest thing can set me off.
nope, s'gotta end.

had a nice night though.
a few laughs.
good tunes.

thank you PePe.

stayed at the other halfs.
was lovely.
i love three hour long conversations about anything and everything :)

i have my cousin up for a week.
its going to be a lovely week.

im gonna see Bruno, for real this time!, on thursday with bubbbbba.
yes.
i think ill wear my leans, yes, leans.

i wore them last night for the first time.
i love 'em.
i decided to make my own name for them, 'stead of following the crowd with 'jeggings'.
its an annoying word.

watching The Fellowship of the Rings in my bed now.
i adore LOTR.
its ridiculously awesome.
i want to read the books but i tend to be a tad on the lazy side.

well, goodnight all.
sweeet dreams :)

Four Months till Forever.

happy baby :)
lately, ive been happier than ive ever, ever been.
it gets a little ridiculous sometimes :D
everyone seems to be quite happy atm, which just makes me even happier!

today will be a good good day.
i know it.
and a good good night.

got to clean my room soon.
and go get some juice, im parched.

i love you Liam. x

Keira Knightly.

is the best period drama actress ever.
i adore her, she is awesome.

The Duchess, is amazing.
i loved it.
i watched it with Liam the other night.

..... have i already mentioned this?
i dont know and i cbf going back to check.
lazy bum.

i wish i could sort out this stupid blog and make it look pretty.

Crookers - Knobbers.
will forever remind me of the afterparty, aswell as rockness.
but the afterparty, people loved it, i loved it :D
my boyfriend actually danced with me!
i dont care what he says, just because he cant remember it doesnt mean that it doesnt count.

Steve Aoki's remix of NASA - Gifted is amazing, i wuv it.

http://hypem.com/#/meganrachel
go go go.
i have a good taste in music, dont worry.
actually, go here and see who im following, they are awesome :)


i want to go dancing now, raving it up.
anyone care to join me?
on the streets of drum?
hells mother fucking yes.

CHOO CHOO.

i need new clothes, shoes and a hair cut.
moooooooooooooooolah is needed for that though :/
gots none.

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawn, i need to pee.
lazy, dont wanna get up.
time to get the cathater fitted.
god im bad at spelling, i just dont know what to do.
you know what i mean though, eh?
good.

oh my god.
going back to page one of my hype machine :)
not listened to Calico Horse' version of Idioteque on forever!
it is lovely.

i should start structuring these blogs instead of them being a rambling mess.
ach, thats how my mind works, its how i communicate with people :D

back soon.

beebz.

i have friends again :D

its ten past one, im still in bed.
its the summer after all and i have no work today.
gonna tidy my room a bit in a minute.
maybe.

see my baby :)

what up.

long time no speak, eh.
i dont go on the computer anymore, dunno why.

making my bebo again, sucks how i am an idiot and deleted it.
i had it for like three four years, longer than most people.
now im down to like two days :(

add me if i ament adding you, im sorry for not.

i bought Anastasia for three pound in hmv.
also, hp one and two for o fiver each and the Duchess for a fiver.
and the new Fightstar album, awwwwwesome.

guess what?
JEGGINGS.
wearing them for the first time to see Bruno on friday with my love.
wanna come?
thought a yes.

need to clean my room.
its minging.
my door brokded.
not pleased.
need to sort my posters.
buy me pins.

i love spending time with my big teaspoon, cough cough, Liam.
new nickname people, get it circulating.
i can just imagine it, when the boys are playing footie.
'Oi Big Teaspoon, pass 'eeees the bawww.'
:)
thats my accent btdubbs.

nobodys perfect, i got to work it, again and again till i get it right.
thanks Hannah Montana, i dont feel like such a queer anymore.

i went to see Transformers two, dont think ive said yet.
it was good, nothing like the first one but good.
also Year One, faf, funny as france.
he eats poop, ewwww and pees on his face, ewwwww, ahahahahaha.
new style of kissing, loving it.

the Leavers Dance 1st July 2009.
only got there at like half nine but it was good.
second last dance with PePe, lovely.
my last dance was with Carla :')
it was lovely, im going to miss him, and everyone so so so much when they leave me :'( i almost cried dancing with him.

on to the after party?
HELLS YES.
it was unbelievable.
so much fun.
the music was awesome ;)
i got ridiculously sweaty though, bleugh, not pleasant.
*see picture of me and Joeby.
then sitting at the shop and roundabout, the craic was flowing boys.
Li Li stayed at mines and i was late for school.

my business management class won our task! (Y)
that hmv voucher was spent the next day.

Sianans birthday was good fun (:
Happy Seventeenth.
Cinnamon was scrummmy.

oh and CONGRATS Hannah for passing your test.
already had a few lifts from her ;) cheers.

i love spending my nights, after work, with my boy and his friends.
they are so much fun, though i only get teased for being scared of seeing Angels and getting my name shouted at me in Solid Snakes voice.
wonderful.
nah, i love the boys, they are awesome.
new bessies :D
had a barbie last night with Li Li, Marty Party, Pa Pa and PePe, was fun.
under the Lewiston Bridge.
num num num.

caught up now?
good.

bye.

The Twilight Saga : New Moon.

not only is one of my favourite books being made into my film.
it is also being released on my birthday.
Twenty-Seventh of November 2009.
:D



i love being told that people read my blog :)
my blog is shit but knowing that people take the time to read my rubbishy writing really does make me happy.

random snippets of megans life :

i have a sore belly.
transformers 2 in the morning (Y)
summer holidays in four and a half days.
working a split shift tomorrow starting at one.
must have my last dance at the dance with Carlaaaaaa.
after party :D
gotta find something nice to wear.
gotta dye my hair again before wednesday.
gotta gotta gotta.
i need to clean my room out, again.
i need to re-read Harry SnotPot before i see the movie of Half-Blood Princeicle.
i love playing football at the primary school with the boys, it is fun.
i like to attack Liam when he is playing football.
i also like reading the boys Man Facts from more! magazine.
i like my boys.
3 for £1 crisps.
2 for £1.60 juice.
i adore long lies in Liams bed.
im liking late nights out in Drum.
oh wow, the 90's room.
walking along singing Soulja Boy to Li Li.
i have the coolest phone background, better than yours i suspect.
i saw Crookers.
they are not ned beats.
witnessing Plummy Quotes of the Day, make my day.
really, if i hear one more thing about Metal Gear Solid or whatever it is called, i will shot myself.
i saw David Hasselhoff and his really hotttttttt daughter.
i read The Wasp Factory by Iain Banks, it was mental, actually pyscho and i loved it.
blogger.com better be contacted or i will scream, no failing on me please.
i have perfume again, Nina Ricci.
i bought snazzy shorts from Zara, i wuv them.
i dont know what to do with my life, its starting to scare me.
help?!

i like qriting long blogs, especially when they are rambling nonesense. when i look back, i see just what a silly person i am. makes me giggle. that reminds me of a Barney the Dinosaur video i used to have, the Circus one.

ive got a wiggle in my toe and something something something.

it was a good song.
just like the healthy food one.
nuts and cheese and some of these and a glass of fruit juice too.

:) oh my childhood.
it was a good 'un.

Lunch Enthusiasts.

school and work take up all my spare time now.
its just not fair.
i never spend time with my friends anymore.
i dont see Liam as much as i would hope to.
oh deary me.

summer soon.
consumed by work probs.
i need to start saving for my life ahead.
for Ricky Gervais and Biffy Clyro trips.
and whatever else.

i feel a migraine coming on.
this computer is only making things worse.

sleepover tonight? :)
missed you baby.

soco and lime.

annie mac.
crookers.
dizzee rascal.
basement jaxx.
tommy reilly.
pendulum dj set.
the wombats.
biffy clyro.
placebo.
the prodigy.

a wonderful weekend.

:)

for Sian.

for all the wasted checks of my blogs (:



i love going to work nowadays.
all the banter makes me well happy :D
skittles and toffee crisp things.
nummy num num.


what is love?
its a verb.
what else is it?
a doing word.
whats on my breath?
fearless.
whats on the fire?
teardrops.


S6, exciting stuff . . . . not really.
bored already t b h.

i got my rockness ticket :D :D :D :D
saturday morning, ill be there!


jean michells leaving party?
ya ya ya!

nice dreams.

ive spent the last couple of days being happy.
and ive loved it.
saturday, i worked then stayed it liams.
well, after we seshed at the pavillion.
that was awesome, got a bit wasted.
not too good though, when you are staying at your boyfriends house for the first time :/
it went well so (Y)
played guitar with my love, i hate how good he is.
envious.
i really need to play more but im far to lazy.
whipped his ass at dead or alive 4. :D
cos i iz amazeeeeen.
sunday, we went for dinner at fiddlers.
i felt so bad, thought i might of got joe in trouble :(
sorry if i did mate!
i had a lovely night.
sleeping alone is not nice after sleeping beside the person you love.
:'(
monday, the day before my last exam.
went into school, did like five minutes of revision.
went for lunch, sat with rory, romy, charlotte and davey.
we had pasta kings, num num num.
they enjoyed my story.

right, i was in work like last week and i was asking this american table if they would like any drinks so the guy turns to me and says 'Do you have gassy water?' so holding back a laugh a say 'Yes, you mean sparkling water?' when the guy turns to his wife or something and asks 'Would you like with gas or without gas?!'
funniest day of my life.
just imagine the accent.

then we went down the shop, played american football, swinging comps. lay on the pitch, did artistic photos, a pyramid! ate ice cream, went home.
i saw li li and went to work.
then home at nine ish for some last minute revision!
tuesday, fuck off exam. the sqa can go suck on big donkey balls, as angus put it.
i hate them.
and myself.
apart from that, my day was good.
went to work with hannnnnnah at one and we ate sweeties.
then i went home at eight ish and stayed at liams :D
oh, the first time i stayed we watched 3:10 to Yuma.
i love it :)
this time i fell asleep on him.
i was exhausted.
so then wednesday, yesterday, we stayed in bed till six.
it was lovely.
then went to the lewiston for dinner.
yum.
then we went to the park for a bit.
catched the craic.
while beating up paul (Y)
home to liams for some more dead or alive 4 ass whooping.
im just, incredible at it.
hahahahahahaha.
then home :(
i miss him.
my bed feels rubbish without him.
say what you want angus, yes im being soppy but oh well, i want to say it.
today, town for Jasons birthday.
HAPPY NINETEENTH BELATED BIRTHDAY!
i hope the weather picks up.
home on eight bus (N) gay.
but i have work tomorrow at twelve.
till close :/
bleugh.
back to school monday.
no no no non on o no no no no n o n on.

i watched Son of Rambow yesterday.
it was really funny and so sad.
i cried quite a bit.
i most definatly recommend it.


i also watched the first episode of Dollhouse.
what an amazing series thats gonna be!
i love how it has Katya from Neighbours in it!

feeling a bit down.
failing exams.
arguments of some sort.
busy working.
i just dont feel right.

a great day.

the funnest night.

Loser <3

diy-ers.
yes, jean michel, the thing is disturbing!
smoked salmon sandwich, my lunch.
my tattoo by jm.


im having a wonderful day.
spent most of it at my work, drawing pictures and tattoos with Jean Michel and talking away to everyone (:
i now have a tattoo of a game boy on my hand.
pictures later :D
Benjamin made me a lovely sandwich and put a note on it saying Loser <3
he is kind to me.
cant wait to get my tattoo, spiderman (Y)
im wearing my brand new calculator tshirt from topman, i adore it.

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

ODL.

revision?
for losers.
revision in the sun?
for the cool kids.
off out after this song i think.
Radiohead-15 Steps.
im happy im not a loner today, tres heureuse (:

loves.

adv higher, int 2, higher performance students.
jon, cameron and megan.

paton, claire, megan and kim.


sad to see them go.
gonna miss them :(
gonna miss all the leavers, lots and lots.

man, i love college.

and i love drinking.

asher roth - i love college.

bit of awesome.

yesterday, i didnt bother with school.
stayed home, slept in, went out in the sun.
Liam and myself went to Inverness to get a Burger King, it was amazing.
then he took me to The Islands cos ive never been before.
they were lovely.
we read Glamour magazine.
when we got back to town, we got a MacDonalds. :D
my arteries are going to fail me soon, i can feel it.
had a beautiful evening with my boy.

today, slept in, ooops.
went into school, sat in english on my own singing along to my music while, without my knowing, Jamie Mackay was listening :
found everyone hiding from me down the shop.

just watched a few episodes of The Menatlist.
Simon Baker is unbelievable, perfect for the character.
and rather pretty if i may say.
:)

fencing.

my last couple of days have been utterly wonderful.

friday :
in music, i spent the last lesson with my performance only boys, Jon and Cameron.
listened to Jon playing the drums with hand. awesomeness.
then went and had a wee party.

maths = ridiculous.
work?!?! dont think so somehow.
i did like two questions and spent most of my last lesson, with Angus, Paul and Ross.
gonna miss them, in maths anyways, cos they are funny.

double french, Brother Bear, tears, petite filous, croisants and pain au chocolat things.
(Y)(Y)
im not going to miss doing french.
soz.

lunch :|
got a tad soaked by the leavers who had armed themselves with water guns and balloons.
got attacked, by Carls rock of a water balloon which didnt burst and PePes mental water gun in my face.
knocked off my hat into a muddy puddle, :(

english and histoy were alright.
just sat about. watched Taming of the Shrew, talked.

after school is when my life got amazing.
i met up with Liam and we went to town.
TO SEE STAR TREK!
and oh my fucking god.
AMAZING.
i really liked it.
loved every character.
and every second of it.
KIM from Home and Away was in it.
well, im just about to look it up but im pretty darn sure it was him.
also, in Wolverine im sure the guy who was going to marry Sally, the headmaster of Summer Bay High guy, was one of the lumber jack men.
go see Star Trek. right now.
just go.
Liam stayed, it is so lovely being able to wake up next to him.

but he made me late for work, i slept in.
worked.
went home and got myself ready for going out.
Happy 17th to my Puffin Romy, on saturday.
we went to Pizza Express, Romy, Ashley, Sianan and myself.
it was so nice.
then to see Star Trek.
yes, a second time and it was so much better!

Liam stayed at mines again.
slept till about three the next day :D
i love long lies.

Sang Real.

i watched The DaVinci Code the other night, for the first time.
i really liked it.
i will need to watch it again to grasp everything though, texting distracted me through most of it.

im going to see Star Trek tomorrow :D

i was off school again this morning, but i trudged my way down in the rain to do my history nab.
paper two, Cold War stuffs.
Vietnam War -1963 to 1973.
Czechoslovakia (Prague Spring) - 1968.
Berlin Crisis - 1961.
i think i did better than i expected.
the picture question took me a while and i didnt know how to answer it properly.
then four and five, were rushed and disgustingly done.
i finished like ten seconds before time was up!

(yn)

tremble for my beloved.

i had the best feeling ever tonight.

the one when you look at the person you love, think back to when you wished you could find your Edward Cullen or your Romeo and you realise something.

that this person, this person that you love, is better than anyone you ever wished for and you know that you could never want anyone else.
you feel safe with them, you feel at home, you feel loved and in love.

this is the feeling i felt tonight.

i have the best feeling ever.

New Moon.

It was a crippling thing, this sensation that a huge hole had been punched through my chest, excising my most vital organs and leaving ragged, unhealed gashes around the edges that continued to throb and bleed despite the passage of time. Rationally, I knew my lungs must still be intact, yet i gasped for air and my head spun like my efforts yielded me nothing. My heart must have been beating, too, but i couldn't hear the sound of my pulse in my ears; my hands felt blue with cold. I curled inward, hugging my ribs to hold myself together. I scrambled for my numbness, my denial, but it evaded me.
And yet, I found I could survive. I was alert, I felt the pain-the aching loss that radiated out from my chest, sending racking waves of hurt through my limbs and head-but it was manageable. I could live through it. It didn't feel like the pain had weakened over time, rather that I'd grown strong enough to bear it.

sniffle sniffle.

Coraline by Neil Gaimen.

unbelievable, to say the least.
i have trully fallen in love with this book and i am really looking forward to the movie.
especially as it is a Henry Selick and Tim Burton.
but is it Tim?
i do not know.

i wish i was a girl like Coraline.
someone who is brave and strong.
who can be faced with any dilemma and have the brains and wit to get through it.
someone who gets to go on adventures.
disturbing but amazing adventures.

i want :
a talking cat to help me out.
a stone that shows me hidden souls.
a door to lead me to a different world.
to be smart.

i wish i was Coraline Jones.

i'm drowning in my sleep.

i should be doing homework.




on saturday, i dont remember what i did during the day :/
sat about probs.
but my evening was exciting.
i went to see Wolverine with my dad and brother.
it was extremelly awesome.
cried like four times!
then, i met up with Liam, Angus and Paul.
spent most of that time being made fun of then ending up seeing Wolverine again :D
was pretty chuffed tbh, i love it.
came home, had a very eventful time on the bus and a charming talk with Paul and Liam before going back to mines with my love.
sunday, i was in my bed till five in the evening when i got up, went to work, then came home with Liam (:
today, i watched Meet the Spartans, ate some food, watched Twilight, sobbed for a bit then listened to some music.

exciting?
didnt think so.

i like radiohead.
cannot believe i just said that.





give me a hug?

i'm not a war machine.

it is half eight on thursday 30th april morning.
romy and myself are sitting in inverness train station, waiting for jason, choppz and rachel to appear.
when i get a phone call off of jason himself.
'em, im so sorry megan, even more so cos i was being cocky earlier about it, but i forgot your train tickets.'
what!?!?!?!
i wanted to beat the crap out of that boy.
when he arrives at the train station with a straight face asking if i wanted to go buy some tickets, ten minutes before the train departed.
i storm over when he tells me that he cant do this anymore, of course he has the bloody tickets.
he has been to more gigs than i have had hot meals.

the train to glasgow went rather quick.
i love trains.
we arrive at like half one ish, check in at the travelodge isnt till three!
we wander about, get stopped by a lovely man trying to get jas to buy a subway card thing, ending up in macdonalds for over an hour, watching jason attack three mcchicken sandwiches squashed together and choppz munching on two big macs together.
awesomeness.

we then check in and romy and my room, room 110, is teeny but cosy i suppose.
we crack open our voddy and irn bru, and make our way to 123, where the party was at.
i then proceed to drink most of a large bottle of magners to myself, while playing have you ever?
i must say that i have never to a lot of things, ahaha.

we leave about seven, half seven, after my parents had tried to contact me but i never heard it, didnt want to dare try phoning them back, wondering where the france the abc is.
we found it eventually, two minutes down the road.
we get in and buy merchandise.
my beautiful black top with red and white that says Be Human Fightstar [need to buy that album, gutted i never got it before] with jaegermeister on the back (Y)
i love it.

then we heard some of Incase of Fire who were alright.
but the main attraction, FIGHTSTAR, followed shortly.
and they were unbelievable.
fuck me, i was in love.
Charlie, just oh my god, reminded both Romy and myself of Liam :)
they played amazingly.
was singing my lungs to death, bopping away.
poor choppz though, getting attacked by a shoe.
and jason, being killed in the pit.

after leaving the abc, we made out way back to the hotel for some more boozing, of course.
finished off another big bottle of magners, the rest of the vodka, a bottle of sidecick, a bottle of cactus jacks and at least half a bottle of archers.
i didnt spew once :D
others did though :P but felt much better because of it.
it was so much fun.
listening to music, chatting away.
fighting with the boys, im pretty pleased with the way i handle choppz, a swift scratch to the arm.
im now nicknamed Wolverine (:
tried to do some handstands, wacked my leg of the seat, was agony.
Rach and me did some roly polys, on and off the bed, along the floor, was great!
i was very happy to meet her, i heard so much about her, she is lovely (:
got tipped off a seat backwards by jason, was sore :'(
tried to get him back but he is stronger then me.
i love to annoy him though, moving his perfectly placed headbandm biting his arm (Y) fun times.
romy then started passing in and out of conciousness, very tired.
so while finishing off the m&ms, cheddar and onion mccoys and cactus jack bottle, romy, jason and myself thought we would give the lovebirds some privacy, got to room 110 and passed out as soon as.
took some pretty pictures first.
my bessies a twat!

sleeeeeeeeep.

the next day, i woke up drunk.
i hate that.
got up eventually, showered, got dressed and ready, watched 4music, refused to say housekeeping in a funny voice and was forced out into the rain to farmfoods to buy toothpaste.
left to wander round glasgow centre, hungover like nothing else, tried to eat chicken nuggets but really couldnt, changed into jeans, felt a bit better.
shopped in the biggest hmv's i have ever eveeer been in!
spent lots of money, got on the train home.
it was an alright journey, bit of banter.
woken up by a slap, shat myself, to jason screaming, ITS SNOWING, when the guy that was sharing a table with us replied, i think its blossom mate.
AHAHA, gutted Jas.
if it was snow, i would of shot myself.

got home, ate a greggs sausage roll, yum, went to bed and watched most of The Little Vampire and fell asleep by eleven.

my trip was the best ever.
my teachers can go fuck themselves if they think i give a shit about what they think.

watched School for Scoundrels this morning, it was freaking awesome, i loved it.
back in bed, watching James and the Giant Peach.
:) good times.

rawr?

17 out of 50, poor show Megan, poor show.

history tomorrow (N)

listening to Gallows feat. Lethal Bizzle - Staring at the Rude Boiis.
not listened to it in years, i love it.

about to go for a walk (:

then revising for tomorrow.
im hungry.

Charlie Simpson from Fightstar likes The Xcerts.
how unbelievably awesome :D
i adore them both.

one in the am.

phone calls.
love it :)
barely being spoken to but oh well.

im waltzing on tuesday.

cannot wait for fighstar.

xD

i didnt realise people could be so cruel.

ive been living with such covered eyes.
its quite ridiculous.


i had a wonderful day yesterday.
out with the girls then seeing Liam.
I Love You, Man was fantastic.
oh my god, hilarious.
go see it, now!

HARRY POTTER LOOKS SOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD.
i cannot wait.

not letting that get me down beautiful, it just cant.
ive realised that nothing can break us apart, nothing at all.
i love you more than anything Liam, that is all that matters (:

x

well, my love[s].

http://twitter.com/megaaaatron


do it.

two weeks yesterday.

glasgow for fightstar.




xD

follow me on twitter.

it is quite ridiculous how much i hated people saying this.
but
im setting myself one up, as we speak.

would you like to know the reason?
Alan Carr and Stephen Fry.

why are Australian soaps so sad??
Zeke, you have to come back, seriously.
and Belle, get a grip and Aiden, dont leave her.

crazy stuff.

i have had the most wonderful last couple of hours.
thank you my beauitful boy :)

mowin' my front lawn ;)

i have a load of pictures like this that i used to put on my myspace and on the captions of my pictures.
its nice to know that some of them still apply (:

they see me rollin', they hate it, controlling, they think that i be ridin' dirrrrrrty.

chamillionaire, i love you.


i was watching this gorgeous young man last night, in the awesome movie called Juno.
michael cera ♥
i love the movie Juno, its so good.
i was shocked to find out today that my auntie loves it an' all.
that right made me smile :D


kidnap me? pretty please.


i am dying my hair at this moment in time, got twenty minutes left.
my aunt did it for me, she is awfully kind.
we will wait and see the results huh.

im sticking with you, cos im made out of glue.

it is five past two in the a m.
i have just written most of my history essay.
revised some biology but done nothing of anything else.







i hate fucking school :@










i want to be back in the woods, on my walk with Liam.
a submarine CANNOT have a sail!
daffodils (:
i had an amazing time, lots of fun.

just watched Knocked Up, now on Juno.
love them, lots and lots.
time for sleep though.
school can go fuck itself.
argh :@ :@ :@ :@